Post by milkbottle78 on Nov 11, 2020 7:52:32 GMT -5
(15y, Fem)
Ok, I'm aware this is anonymous but it's still hard to say. Basically I have been self harming for a while now, a few months. Semi-Recently my parents found out and took me to someone who could help. They suggested finding other ways to cope and reach out to my parents when I have to.
I was at this for about a month and I tried lots of different things, drawing, sewing, coding, writing, etc. Some of them helped a bit, but when the urges came back, it wasn't enough to push them away.
Recently, I found a way to cope. I'd rather not say what it is since it's kind of... weird, but I will say that it doesn't hurt anyone (including myself). Additionally, it isn't insanely expensive or bad for my health. I found engaging in it really helpful and it's the best way to cope for me. I've successfully been able to push back a lot of the S/H urges and am now 2 weeks clean.
Problem is, as previously mentioned, it's weird. I asked my friends and girlfriend what they thought of it (without saying I was someone who did it) and they said it was strange and they find people who engage in it weird. I see how it would look weird to an outsider, so I'm not too surprised. But after their reactions, I really don't want to tell my parents, or anyone really, about this. Despite what I've been advised to do.
I want to try order some supplies online for my hobby, but I know my parents would ask about what they're for and I just can't explain. I do have my own bank account but only my parents can access it. I can't even buy the stuff in stores because it's either not the stuff I want or ridiculously expensive. I have money, but it's frustrating that I can't use it for the things I want. I've even tried ordering it through a friend, saying that it was for someone else, But that didn't work either.
So what should I do? Should I own up to this and face losing friends or getting severely judged by my parents? Or should I just settle for what I already have, or give up the hobby entirely?
Thanks x
Ok, I'm aware this is anonymous but it's still hard to say. Basically I have been self harming for a while now, a few months. Semi-Recently my parents found out and took me to someone who could help. They suggested finding other ways to cope and reach out to my parents when I have to.
I was at this for about a month and I tried lots of different things, drawing, sewing, coding, writing, etc. Some of them helped a bit, but when the urges came back, it wasn't enough to push them away.
Recently, I found a way to cope. I'd rather not say what it is since it's kind of... weird, but I will say that it doesn't hurt anyone (including myself). Additionally, it isn't insanely expensive or bad for my health. I found engaging in it really helpful and it's the best way to cope for me. I've successfully been able to push back a lot of the S/H urges and am now 2 weeks clean.
Problem is, as previously mentioned, it's weird. I asked my friends and girlfriend what they thought of it (without saying I was someone who did it) and they said it was strange and they find people who engage in it weird. I see how it would look weird to an outsider, so I'm not too surprised. But after their reactions, I really don't want to tell my parents, or anyone really, about this. Despite what I've been advised to do.
I want to try order some supplies online for my hobby, but I know my parents would ask about what they're for and I just can't explain. I do have my own bank account but only my parents can access it. I can't even buy the stuff in stores because it's either not the stuff I want or ridiculously expensive. I have money, but it's frustrating that I can't use it for the things I want. I've even tried ordering it through a friend, saying that it was for someone else, But that didn't work either.
So what should I do? Should I own up to this and face losing friends or getting severely judged by my parents? Or should I just settle for what I already have, or give up the hobby entirely?
Thanks x
