Post by liv on Dec 20, 2016 18:04:46 GMT -5
Okay, so I'm sure whoever reads this will understand why I can't go out and ask my family when I share this. I have never spoken a word about this and it's been 7 years. I'm 15 currently and the memories never go away. Nobody ever noticed that my grandfather always used to call me his favorite and treat me differently than all my cousins and my cousins were usually more jealous because of it. I don't know if my grandmother ever knew what was going on but it would always happen right in her house. I was only eight years old and of course young children are always told that you have to do whatever adults tell them to do, and I listened and let him do what he wanted. They never go away and every time I get flashbacks they get worse and worse. It's gotten to the point that whenever I go back into those memories I cry for hours and my family is getting worried but I can't tell them. I'm going to ruin everybody's life if I ever tell them. I can't even carry on relationships with friends and whenever I get close with a boy it all comes back and it's ruining my life and how I live. It's eating away at me. I don't know how much longer I can take it.
