Post by housekeeper16 on Dec 18, 2016 11:20:08 GMT -5
All honest, I have been married 19yrs. I love my husband and he is good to me.& I dont feel like he wants me anymore Im just someone to f**k and im just the one he is suppose to be with. Our sesx life has never honestly does a whole lot for me but I fake it cause I love him, also he sits at his videos games for hours and hours on end. I am completely alone in a house where I should not be. To the point that I can have email conversations with another man from 2-10 4 days a week and he never noticed. This has been going on for more than half our marriage as a matter of fact he got his first system the dec we were married.
I have been having an affair for several months, the guy is much older than myself he doesnt want anything from me, except me.. He gives me things I have begged my husband for I want/need to be very submissive in the bedroom,.but also have noticed
Lately I have been having some unexpected feeling the older man is having effects on my mood, when i dont talk to him or we arent on the same page then im sad or a little angry. I dont love him but I dont want to lose him. He does things to me and for me that no one ever has, I have never been more sexually satisfied in my life. This man is everything I want in my sex life, he lets me let go of all responsibility, or all control he takes it and then not only does he use me(which i love) for his pleasure he always always makes sure mine is better than his own.and he makes sure I know he wants me, i know its not cause he HAS to cause he doesnt have to. IM SO LOST
I do have guilt about having an affair and i wish to God my husband would listen when i try to talk to him about sexual things, but its like he doesnt really think anything should change. I have no desire to leave my husband
Should i just let go and give up on the most wonderful amazing sex ive ever had in my life, I know this sounds selfish but there is so much more that we dont have to get into.
At what point do we stop trying to please everyone except ourselves.
I have been having an affair for several months, the guy is much older than myself he doesnt want anything from me, except me.. He gives me things I have begged my husband for I want/need to be very submissive in the bedroom,.but also have noticed
Lately I have been having some unexpected feeling the older man is having effects on my mood, when i dont talk to him or we arent on the same page then im sad or a little angry. I dont love him but I dont want to lose him. He does things to me and for me that no one ever has, I have never been more sexually satisfied in my life. This man is everything I want in my sex life, he lets me let go of all responsibility, or all control he takes it and then not only does he use me(which i love) for his pleasure he always always makes sure mine is better than his own.and he makes sure I know he wants me, i know its not cause he HAS to cause he doesnt have to. IM SO LOST
I do have guilt about having an affair and i wish to God my husband would listen when i try to talk to him about sexual things, but its like he doesnt really think anything should change. I have no desire to leave my husband
Should i just let go and give up on the most wonderful amazing sex ive ever had in my life, I know this sounds selfish but there is so much more that we dont have to get into.
At what point do we stop trying to please everyone except ourselves.
