Post by mangoeater on Nov 8, 2020 16:04:53 GMT -5
I love her in that stupid way teenagers do, I'd jump a bullet for her and I dedicate alot of my time to this girl, she means the world to me.
She suffers from Clinical Depression, Social Anxiety and Childhood Trauma, the whole hellish package.
I've known this ever since we met (we met in July 2019) and I've tried to be supportive and helpful ever since, I myself have no experience with Mental Illness. The worst thing to happen to me was severe bullying, but this isnt about me. We have fallen apart a few times and I hate how many Times I've made these small idiotic mistakes that have had huge consequences, a former friend of our's even sexually assaulted her and I haven't gotten the guts to confront him about it yet. These Day's our Relationship is going well and she's finally getting professional help which relieves us both
however I still want to be the supportive and understanding boyfriend she needs.
Often when she needs my support, especially with other friends around, I am lost for words and my Head hurts trying to find what to say even though I know the solution I know she wants to be held close and reminded of my love for her but all that comes out of my stupid mouth is "Oh that really sucks", "Who did that!?", "Jesus christ...".
After these awkwardly pathetic interactions I lose it, I destroy myself in self hatred and feel useless as ever drowning in my own guilt.
I've researched all over the internet but I still seem lost, how can I be better at supporting her and how do I stop making such stupid mistakes, losing her to suicide is a nightmare I dream of regularly and I dont want it to happen, please help
She suffers from Clinical Depression, Social Anxiety and Childhood Trauma, the whole hellish package.
I've known this ever since we met (we met in July 2019) and I've tried to be supportive and helpful ever since, I myself have no experience with Mental Illness. The worst thing to happen to me was severe bullying, but this isnt about me. We have fallen apart a few times and I hate how many Times I've made these small idiotic mistakes that have had huge consequences, a former friend of our's even sexually assaulted her and I haven't gotten the guts to confront him about it yet. These Day's our Relationship is going well and she's finally getting professional help which relieves us both
however I still want to be the supportive and understanding boyfriend she needs. Often when she needs my support, especially with other friends around, I am lost for words and my Head hurts trying to find what to say even though I know the solution I know she wants to be held close and reminded of my love for her but all that comes out of my stupid mouth is "Oh that really sucks", "Who did that!?", "Jesus christ...".
After these awkwardly pathetic interactions I lose it, I destroy myself in self hatred and feel useless as ever drowning in my own guilt.
I've researched all over the internet but I still seem lost, how can I be better at supporting her and how do I stop making such stupid mistakes, losing her to suicide is a nightmare I dream of regularly and I dont want it to happen, please help
