Thinking about a girl that I met once ages ago

There is a girl who I will not name, who I met as she is the daughter of my mum's old friend from college. We went to their house for dinner one day, they live maybe about a 2 hour drive away, I can't fully remember. This girl is about 1 year younger than me, and on the day that we went to their house I hung out with her most of the time on the day. We got along quite well, and just talked about school and stuff. After we had left, I had not really thought about her for multiple years until now. I can't seem to get her off my mind, and I don't even know why. I wonder if it is because I have recently started University, and I have been home sick and thinking a whole lot about mistakes I have made in the past and such. I think about things which people might consider completely stupid and irrelevant. For instance I was thinking about something that I said to the girl on the day I met her as a joke, that might have offended her and I feel really bad about it even though it happened ages ago. Whenever I think about it, I feel really bad and upset with myself. A few years ago, the girl and her family came over to ours instead and I never really talked to her on the day. I think I was being shy, maybe because on that day her sister was there and everyone was in the same room. I have trouble getting the confidence to talk to people in situations of that sort. I keep having regret that I didn't speak to her, because I really wanted to. I have had this situation countless number of times with people that I want to talk to, but I can't get the courage that I need.

I guess that's what I want to say for now, I apologise if my wording and such is bad but I really just thought I should spill out what is on my mind. If anyone reads this and takes the time to send a response even if it a link to another website or something, I will be truly ever so grateful.

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