Post by bell3333 on Oct 13, 2021 11:32:03 GMT -5
Hello everybody, thanks for reading in advance.
So we are in a long distance relationship, its already hard for me to feel connected to him on some levels bc of that, but we make it work and even thought it makes me sad im still happy we are together even if far.
But now onto the topic, i went out last weekend, got drunk with my friends etc, we were at the bar and very quick a guay asks me if i want a shot, and i say of what as we go to get it, but the thing is that i accepted it and engage in a stupid and dull conversation with him, whats ur age etc, i couldn't care less about this guy, and i know its sounds weird but i have a really hard time saying no to people, yes, even people i dont know etc.
I felt so bad after, and i waited till monday to tell my bf bc i though it was the right thing, i was feeling very faecal and angry at myself. i told him and he was very sad and felt very disrespected (which i understand) i feel so alone now, i know he needs his space and its probably not in the mood to tell me that he loves me or misses me...he says that he forgives me and that he loves me the same as always, but i feel so remorseful, i feel like a piece of shit for not being able to say no or give a quick negative response to a guy that i didnt even notice or i would have liked to be friends with or anything, i got grossed out the more i stayed talking to him, and i feel disgusted at myself, i dont want to encounter this guy or situation myself because i love my boyfriend with all my heart.
I dont know what to do, i dont know what to expect i feel very ashamed, i wish i could kiss him and hug him right now, its so hard when i cant even see him or talk to him, i miss him.
On another note, yes i also have problems of emotional codependy as you can see, im working on it but its really hard right now.
Sorry for all this emotional bomb.
So we are in a long distance relationship, its already hard for me to feel connected to him on some levels bc of that, but we make it work and even thought it makes me sad im still happy we are together even if far.
But now onto the topic, i went out last weekend, got drunk with my friends etc, we were at the bar and very quick a guay asks me if i want a shot, and i say of what as we go to get it, but the thing is that i accepted it and engage in a stupid and dull conversation with him, whats ur age etc, i couldn't care less about this guy, and i know its sounds weird but i have a really hard time saying no to people, yes, even people i dont know etc.
I felt so bad after, and i waited till monday to tell my bf bc i though it was the right thing, i was feeling very faecal and angry at myself. i told him and he was very sad and felt very disrespected (which i understand) i feel so alone now, i know he needs his space and its probably not in the mood to tell me that he loves me or misses me...he says that he forgives me and that he loves me the same as always, but i feel so remorseful, i feel like a piece of shit for not being able to say no or give a quick negative response to a guy that i didnt even notice or i would have liked to be friends with or anything, i got grossed out the more i stayed talking to him, and i feel disgusted at myself, i dont want to encounter this guy or situation myself because i love my boyfriend with all my heart.
I dont know what to do, i dont know what to expect i feel very ashamed, i wish i could kiss him and hug him right now, its so hard when i cant even see him or talk to him, i miss him.
On another note, yes i also have problems of emotional codependy as you can see, im working on it but its really hard right now.
Sorry for all this emotional bomb.
