Post by quinhawkthurne on Jan 17, 2021 22:52:33 GMT -5
First of all, I ought to mention I've not been to a doctor for my condition, if it actually is a condition.
I'm 16, and I feel like I might be a little young to know the full severity of whatever I'm experiencing, but I still wanted to get some advice if I could.
Four years ago, when I was 12, I noticed that whenever other kids would talk about when they were really young, I couldn't remember the things they did. (Example: My brother can remember going to the park when he was five. I couldn't remember anything from that age at all) It was my first indication that I might have any problems with my memory, and I just called myself forgetful. So did my family. I couldn't remember anything up until about age 7, which wasn't so bad. I hadn't forgotten any skills I had learned, so it didn't hinder me much in school or anything.
But from there, it got worse. When I turned 14 it became obvious that my memory had gotten a lot worse. I couldn't remember my 7th and barely my 8th birthday. I was trying to remember where I had gotten a laptop I own now (my first one, so it was a big moment to me) and I had entirely forgotten that it was my mom's old laptop. I didn't even recall her owning a laptop in the first place.
And that's when I realized I didn't remember much of anything at all from the past couple years.
It doesn't sound so bad on paper, but... it feels like my life is slipping through my fingers like sand and I can't even tell when or why it's happening. I can't remember things like my family dog, the dog that was my friend when I was little. She was really important to me, and I try to keep my memories of her fresh, but it's hard. I keep forgetting what kind of dog she was, and when she passed away. I write things down to try to make sure I remember, but I'll check an entry after a couple of years and just... blank on the memory. I did alright for about a year though, actually.
Like I said before, I'm 16 now, and I'd say my memory is better than it was before since I put daily focus on refreshing it, but something happened more recently.
I just had my 16th birthday and I went through my memory journal to refresh myself on past years, yeah?
I can't remember a single thing that happened before my 10th birthday, and my memory is at best foggy for two years after that. I hadn't checked my journal in a while since I was doing better, maybe that was my mistake. Again, it doesn't sound so bad, but only remember six years (kind of foggily) messes with your head after a while.
I mean I just got reminded last week of two cousins I forgot I had. I went to see them a little while after they were born at my aunt's when I was younger and yet I don't even remember her being pregnant with twins. At all. Even though we got cards for weeks with her pregnancy photos that she sent to my mom. I went through the photos and sure enough, they were there, but I had no clue. It just slipped out of my brain and I don't know how.
I'm getting very worried that I'll forget everything by the time I'm twenty or something, because I just lost two years in one year. Maybe it's something I'll outgrow? God, I hope.
But please. Please. If you know what this is, or at least have an inkling, help me. I'm terrified I'm going to forget my family. I already did forget a little bit of it, and I've forgotten about friends in the past too. It just keeps getting worse and worse and every online memory trick I've found online has failed me.
I get so nervous about this that it's all I think about sometimes. Consider this my S.O.S
I'm 16, and I feel like I might be a little young to know the full severity of whatever I'm experiencing, but I still wanted to get some advice if I could.
Four years ago, when I was 12, I noticed that whenever other kids would talk about when they were really young, I couldn't remember the things they did. (Example: My brother can remember going to the park when he was five. I couldn't remember anything from that age at all) It was my first indication that I might have any problems with my memory, and I just called myself forgetful. So did my family. I couldn't remember anything up until about age 7, which wasn't so bad. I hadn't forgotten any skills I had learned, so it didn't hinder me much in school or anything.
But from there, it got worse. When I turned 14 it became obvious that my memory had gotten a lot worse. I couldn't remember my 7th and barely my 8th birthday. I was trying to remember where I had gotten a laptop I own now (my first one, so it was a big moment to me) and I had entirely forgotten that it was my mom's old laptop. I didn't even recall her owning a laptop in the first place.
And that's when I realized I didn't remember much of anything at all from the past couple years.
It doesn't sound so bad on paper, but... it feels like my life is slipping through my fingers like sand and I can't even tell when or why it's happening. I can't remember things like my family dog, the dog that was my friend when I was little. She was really important to me, and I try to keep my memories of her fresh, but it's hard. I keep forgetting what kind of dog she was, and when she passed away. I write things down to try to make sure I remember, but I'll check an entry after a couple of years and just... blank on the memory. I did alright for about a year though, actually.
Like I said before, I'm 16 now, and I'd say my memory is better than it was before since I put daily focus on refreshing it, but something happened more recently.
I just had my 16th birthday and I went through my memory journal to refresh myself on past years, yeah?
I can't remember a single thing that happened before my 10th birthday, and my memory is at best foggy for two years after that. I hadn't checked my journal in a while since I was doing better, maybe that was my mistake. Again, it doesn't sound so bad, but only remember six years (kind of foggily) messes with your head after a while.
I mean I just got reminded last week of two cousins I forgot I had. I went to see them a little while after they were born at my aunt's when I was younger and yet I don't even remember her being pregnant with twins. At all. Even though we got cards for weeks with her pregnancy photos that she sent to my mom. I went through the photos and sure enough, they were there, but I had no clue. It just slipped out of my brain and I don't know how.
I'm getting very worried that I'll forget everything by the time I'm twenty or something, because I just lost two years in one year. Maybe it's something I'll outgrow? God, I hope.
But please. Please. If you know what this is, or at least have an inkling, help me. I'm terrified I'm going to forget my family. I already did forget a little bit of it, and I've forgotten about friends in the past too. It just keeps getting worse and worse and every online memory trick I've found online has failed me.
I get so nervous about this that it's all I think about sometimes. Consider this my S.O.S
