I hate my parents

Throughout my life I quickly realized that my parents weren`t people that I particularly liked. They were always against everything I stand for : feminism, people rights, animal rights. They believe they are superior to everyone even though they are mean, ignorant, and are terrible with money, I`ve never had a stable home, we`ve been basically in bankrupcy for as long as I can remember, and as soon as they have money they spend it. They never cared about their children`s education (we are 3), they just threatened us with the fact that they probably wouldnt be able to afford it. They are just mean and empty people, with no ambition, with no real or strong values, but this is not the problem. The real problem is that they are really abusive, I decided to postpone University because I wasnt ready, and everyday I have to deal with so much hate, I hear every day I reason why I suck at like, how I am a terrible person, a worthless person, they speak to me with such hatred, that every night I just cry my eyes out and wonder if life is even worth living. I was sexually and mentally abused as a child, and since then I suffer with depression, of course my parents dont know, is not like they even care about my mental or health state. But I am so angry because I met this guy and he really has helped me to be happy again, but now I can feel those dark thoughts creeping in again. I just feel that I would be better off not having a family, I would be happier, I would not get abused and anxious everytime i am in this awful house. Right now I am trying to get a job, be independent, but where I live is extremely hard. I just want to find a way to happiness again, regardless of my situation, I just want to find a way to be stronger than my overwhelming feelings, and be able to get myself out of this toxic situation.